Am I a Witch?

When I was in fourth grade I was obsessed with witches. TV shows like Charmed and Sabrina the Teenage Witch were super popular and I loved everything about magic. I even tried to make my own book of shadows and a boy in my class was actually afraid I would turn him into a frog.

I'm pretty proud of that story.

I was also not allowed to play with the neighbor kids after one of them found some Wicca information that had fallen out of my backpack. (These same kids weren't allowed to watch Disney's Hercules because it was too violent so... yea.)

The Falling Out

As is common when one grows up, I fell away from a lot of the interest in witches and magic. The realities of the physical world became the only realities. 

Even though I always revisited ideas of witches and witchcraft here and there over the years, even though I wanted to get back into it, I never really did. I was convinced it was too much of a learning curve. I thought I had to deliberately set aside parts of each day for it. I felt like I needed to invest in 2000000 crystals, herbs, books, intense study and a rigid schedule of rituals and holidays. 

Whatever the reasons, I had mostly talked myself out of it. Something I'll get around to when I can find the time. 

I went on with my life for about two decades like this. 

I'm Not Religious

Period. Even now that I've added these elements that are taken from what is often considered a religion, I don't believe in it.

I don't believe in God. I don't believe in organized religion. I'm not Wiccan.

I do believe in spirituality. I think it's something very personal. I believe in a collective source energy. I believe we are all God. We contribute to each other and we take away from each other but the source of it all is within us. 

What Changed?

In my last blog post I talked about getting rid of my anxiety when I read this self-hypnosis book. I didn't really understand how it worked, since it seems like the anxiety I've spent decades sometimes struggling with has just vanished to the point where I can't even trigger it on purpose. 

About a month ago I was looking into the idea of Shadow Work and I don't know much about it still, but I finally heard other people describe similar experiences of sudden release of certain traumas and triggers. 

The more I worked on my own introspections the more I would run across certain themes; the moon, crystals, tarot, divination, etc. I added these things to my goals for the year, to my vision board, I downloaded a moon app and I was gifted a crystal starter kit for my birthday in February. 

I've started to follow the Law of Attraction and asking for guidance from my spirit guides. I've seen what energy can do and at what speed and I am obsessed now.

So am I a Witch?

I'm not Wiccan. I'm not practicing any religion. Maybe some kind of baby witch. 

For me the practice, the moon, the crystals, the tarot readings, they are just ways to make life more fun. I could just sit and mediate in silence alone. I could skip all the bells and whistles, but what fucking fun would that even be?

I would say yes. I am a witch. Take that for whatever you like. I see it as being empowered by source. Reaching inside yourself and seeing what is actually possible in this world.

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"Alice laughed: "There's no use trying," she said; "one can't believe impossible things."
"I daresay you haven't had much practice," said the Queen. "When I was younger, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."

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